All That Matters When I'm Gone

At my grandmother's funeral, I saw many family members that I haven't seen in a long time. "Where are your children?", many asked because being 38 and married, it's assumed that I should have some babies by now. My Uncle Lloyd said to me, "You've got to have at least a little girl, she will take care of you when you are old".

Fast forward to this past Thursday morning, riding the Metro North train to work, I decided to listen to my favorite entertainer of all time, Michael Jackson. I've been studying for my next Microbiology exam and needed a break and some inspiration. Michael's "Keep the Faith" and "Man in the Mirror" always get me back on track.

As I was watching a performance of Man in the Mirror on YouTube, I thought, I can't believe he's not here anymore. I've never met him but it feels like I've known him my entire life. Unfortunately, Michael is gone but his music lives on and I'm sitting here on the Metro North being inspired by it. What will my life's work say about me?

It's sort of weird when you know that you won't be having children. I've heard parents, Michael included, saying that their biggest accomplishment was having children. To his children, I'm sure that's all that matters to them, but for the rest of the world, how many children your favorite icon has, is of little significance. We only know their work. Yes, having children would be nice, but I'm more concerned about fulfilling my purpose with meaningful occupation.

Keep in mind that I know there are plenty parents who have balanced parenthood and personal accomplishments wonderfully. The blessing of a child simply was not one granted to me. So what!

Everyone has a different journey to take in this life. I intend on enjoying my walk as much as possible, regardless of the seemingly undesirable roads I might have to travel. When I'm gone, I hope others will be able to look at my journey and be encouraged.